This week has been slowly killing me with all of things that I have had to do. There are so many grades that are right on the cusp and I am SO nervous that they won't go in my favor. Grades have been a little scary this semester. I thought that I would have a lot more time on my hands because I was only taking 15 credits and I did at some points, but it's like whenever I had something due in one class, I had something due in every class. I have a business presentation, this class' presentation, a huge math assignment, a speech, a geography review, and the list seems to go on forever. Finals week is going to be a scary one for me and I'm really hoping I can pull all of this off!
College has been such a learning experience and I have grown up so so much and I'm thankful. A lot has changed and some is for the good and other is for the bad. I've had a lot of problems with my friends from home this year and I don't think they know how much that has affected me. I feel like they are all so two faced towards me and it's the worst feeling in the world. But this has made me realize that I don't need to have the same friends if they're shitty ones. I've met so many wonderful people here and I wouldn't trade them for the world. This is going to make going home so difficult because of this. There are only a few that are from Boise and the rest aren't so it's going to be a weird summer. All I want to do is work and get fit and not drink. I am so sick of alcohol and what it has done to every aspect of my life honestly. It's hard to get away from it in Moscow though. Sometimes I wish I would've gone to a school far far away where I knew no one and could be lost in a big city, but it's a little late for that. I know things will get better and slow down over the summer and I can't wait to spend the days with my mom because I've missed her so much this year. The end of the school year is almost a relief, but it's also so sad because I don't want to leave :( and come back and be a sophomore. I want to be the baby forever.
